It's a beautiful thing to watch and observe kids grow and to see a plant grow taking shapes and color of its origin. I kind of liking the way we look at the pets we have in our houses and the way we treat them. As much as we like them to be cute and follow our patten of living, it seem like we are following their patten of life the most. The different is our patten is not labeled as theirs And we are more tolerant to adopt to the way they live.
Just like fashion designing. Life is more complicated if you want to a patten to it. Most of us live a well planned life, whilst the other half live just enough to get by for the day. Designing takes a creative mind, some kind of skill and scrap paper to sketch your ideas and fabric to try that design on and machinist to put that together. Just because you thought of it does not mean you have to do it. The pattens that we prefer in our lives sometimes are not the right pattens for us. Bad habits are the first thing that hinders us from ourselves. Our beliefs are the other form of distraction to our goals. Then comes morals and sanity.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Stop
If I were to chose what to do ando how to do it I would rather like to stop.
Sto feeling like a stupid sometimes.
Stop being sick most of the time.
Stop trying to fit in friends who dont care.
Stop pretending it all makes sense when it doesnt.
Stop having no hope and faith in things I dont see.
Stop trying so hard.
I havent seen what it will be like to not think until last Monday. When my mind just could not go on thinking and was blank for the whole day. I could not realize by then what was happening to me but I did not seem to have any word or memory or something, it just went blank. I stayed in bed trying to think.
I am thankful for this life and more specially for a friend and a brother who was born on the other side of the world. I met him through my ex job Lion King. From then he never stop loving and caring about me and my family. He sometimes say things that makes me love life in a brighter way. Frank is his name. BROTHER, FRIEND AND STRANGER. Yes the sequence is right. He is a brother first then a friend although he use to be a total stranger. I am happy that I am just an ordinary friend to many but special brother to him.
Sto feeling like a stupid sometimes.
Stop being sick most of the time.
Stop trying to fit in friends who dont care.
Stop pretending it all makes sense when it doesnt.
Stop having no hope and faith in things I dont see.
Stop trying so hard.
I havent seen what it will be like to not think until last Monday. When my mind just could not go on thinking and was blank for the whole day. I could not realize by then what was happening to me but I did not seem to have any word or memory or something, it just went blank. I stayed in bed trying to think.
I am thankful for this life and more specially for a friend and a brother who was born on the other side of the world. I met him through my ex job Lion King. From then he never stop loving and caring about me and my family. He sometimes say things that makes me love life in a brighter way. Frank is his name. BROTHER, FRIEND AND STRANGER. Yes the sequence is right. He is a brother first then a friend although he use to be a total stranger. I am happy that I am just an ordinary friend to many but special brother to him.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Free will
These days some things have been crossing my mind. I have seen some couple of contraversies and sometimes I can't get my head around some of this daily occasions. The bible says God gave us the free will. Then go on sayin He so loved the world that he gave his only son to pay for our sins.
Let us talk about the will to be free, of which is free will. Bible again says the truth shall set you free. The fact is truth hurts. My question is, is free will part of love or is love the part of the free will. God said acording to the bible we can choose whom we want or love to be wife and marry. But then what if love goes away, do you still stay or you have a choice to leave? Do you tell your honest partner who did nothing that love is gone or dou you lie and stay for the sake of trust and promisses and the vows? Do you then convince yourself that things are going to change or you face the fact that things have changed and move on. why then most Christians believe that God chooses someone for you if he gave us the free will. and so why does love go away if we can controle freedom?
I always think the most dificult thing is to lie to yourself, but hey, who am I fooling? This is the part of the daily living. We lie so that we can survive the moment there after hoping to fix that lie and move on living. Answer me then who is free by telling the truth. Most place where we are sworn to tell the truth and only truth is ran by a jugde who in his sobber mind sentence someone who is 40 years old to a double life sentence. where is the truth in that rulling? how can a simple man get two lives in a row. If you are telling the truth in cort, you always go to jail, why is that?
I have to stop now, my mind is very disturbed by what I have seen these days. Hope I can get some answers and some of you can write alittle just to show that you are listening, And maybe help me understand the logic of all these things. I my real life i write songs and plays and to my suprise I write about things i haven't seen but they end up happening. I write about people that I havent met and I meet them later on. Where is the truth and free will. I don't choose my words but my words chose me. This is not helping me at all. this is one of the thing sometimes I feel like running away from writing and be where I will be free, but hey again who am I fooling. I find freedom in writing and I can not survive a day with ought it.
Let us talk about the will to be free, of which is free will. Bible again says the truth shall set you free. The fact is truth hurts. My question is, is free will part of love or is love the part of the free will. God said acording to the bible we can choose whom we want or love to be wife and marry. But then what if love goes away, do you still stay or you have a choice to leave? Do you tell your honest partner who did nothing that love is gone or dou you lie and stay for the sake of trust and promisses and the vows? Do you then convince yourself that things are going to change or you face the fact that things have changed and move on. why then most Christians believe that God chooses someone for you if he gave us the free will. and so why does love go away if we can controle freedom?
I always think the most dificult thing is to lie to yourself, but hey, who am I fooling? This is the part of the daily living. We lie so that we can survive the moment there after hoping to fix that lie and move on living. Answer me then who is free by telling the truth. Most place where we are sworn to tell the truth and only truth is ran by a jugde who in his sobber mind sentence someone who is 40 years old to a double life sentence. where is the truth in that rulling? how can a simple man get two lives in a row. If you are telling the truth in cort, you always go to jail, why is that?
I have to stop now, my mind is very disturbed by what I have seen these days. Hope I can get some answers and some of you can write alittle just to show that you are listening, And maybe help me understand the logic of all these things. I my real life i write songs and plays and to my suprise I write about things i haven't seen but they end up happening. I write about people that I havent met and I meet them later on. Where is the truth and free will. I don't choose my words but my words chose me. This is not helping me at all. this is one of the thing sometimes I feel like running away from writing and be where I will be free, but hey again who am I fooling. I find freedom in writing and I can not survive a day with ought it.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Friday, March 2, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Listening
What if there were no sounds, and everything we hear is not what we see. The mind or rather brain is playing a very vital or important part in our daily living, by connecting those tissues with the nerves and the soul that sees and the organs that hears all that is.
Curiosity is one thing that pushes me to write and compose. I believe that artists in general should be treated differently than normal people. Reason being, with this talent or gift I may say, to be able to create, transform, rearrange some of the greatest pieces in the world comes with a very high price e.g. No privacy; addiction; loneliness; abnormality, etc....
Now the world overlook all these parts and pieces that makes this person unique. when you are dinning with an artist for example, you see spoons, table, knifes, food and all that is there. You ears and minds are focused on this food and socializing as well. On the other hand the artist is listening to the melody and the harmony of your voices and the rhythm of your co-ordination. then something new comes up in his/her head, whilst trying to be with you on the table as well. Some artist do not hear a thing but instead see everything differently then all of you on that table. well.. now it comes to the point that he has to chose to ignore what he sees or react on it immediately. I am back to my first line " what if were no sound? does it means all that I hear is not there. or all that is there is mute.
My first grade, that would be First year at school. Way back in the days. Mafukuzela Primary School. Section B uMlazi. I was the shortest amongst the whole school. We were so many kids as a result they divided us into two groups, one start in the morning at 7:30 - 11:30 and the others at 12:00 - 16:00. So this was very nice for us we would have 30 minutes to play and see our school mates before they go to class. I was a different kid from then, because everything my teacher would be teaching it would come to my ears as a melody or some rhythm. One time i was made to come in front of the whole school and recite "twinkle twinkle little star. " For me the only thing was to sing it, and so I did. Everybody laughed and I felt so embarrased and went home crying. Few week later I was made to join the school choir, not by choice anyway but yeh I did. I led the song that made us win the finals of the primary schools competition.
I still listen and hear sounds and rhythms till today. Two years ago I was called in by the teachers of my daughter 11 years old by then, to discus the missbehaving and disturbing other pupils in the classroom during the learning period. I flew all the way from Germany to Mzansi(South Africa)this white neigbouhood that my girl is attending. The area used to be whites only back in the days. Thank God for the so called freedom haaaa. So, I came in there they extended a very warm welcome to me and my wife., then presented their case. " Your daughter is not doing what we tell here to do most of the time.... She sometimes bust out in a song while we are busy studying. " I asked to see her results of her school work. They said it's not about that she is doing very well infact on top of the class. I said why am I hear then if she is doing well by her method of learni is the same as mine when I was of her age. They said they want to transfare her to another school. That made me furious and I calm myself down and explained to them how I was. But at the end we had an understanding that people are not the same. Do not expect me to hear what you hear.
Take your time and listen as the day goes by, you will be suprised of what you can learn when you just give an ear and a smile.
Curiosity is one thing that pushes me to write and compose. I believe that artists in general should be treated differently than normal people. Reason being, with this talent or gift I may say, to be able to create, transform, rearrange some of the greatest pieces in the world comes with a very high price e.g. No privacy; addiction; loneliness; abnormality, etc....
Now the world overlook all these parts and pieces that makes this person unique. when you are dinning with an artist for example, you see spoons, table, knifes, food and all that is there. You ears and minds are focused on this food and socializing as well. On the other hand the artist is listening to the melody and the harmony of your voices and the rhythm of your co-ordination. then something new comes up in his/her head, whilst trying to be with you on the table as well. Some artist do not hear a thing but instead see everything differently then all of you on that table. well.. now it comes to the point that he has to chose to ignore what he sees or react on it immediately. I am back to my first line " what if were no sound? does it means all that I hear is not there. or all that is there is mute.
My first grade, that would be First year at school. Way back in the days. Mafukuzela Primary School. Section B uMlazi. I was the shortest amongst the whole school. We were so many kids as a result they divided us into two groups, one start in the morning at 7:30 - 11:30 and the others at 12:00 - 16:00. So this was very nice for us we would have 30 minutes to play and see our school mates before they go to class. I was a different kid from then, because everything my teacher would be teaching it would come to my ears as a melody or some rhythm. One time i was made to come in front of the whole school and recite "twinkle twinkle little star. " For me the only thing was to sing it, and so I did. Everybody laughed and I felt so embarrased and went home crying. Few week later I was made to join the school choir, not by choice anyway but yeh I did. I led the song that made us win the finals of the primary schools competition.
I still listen and hear sounds and rhythms till today. Two years ago I was called in by the teachers of my daughter 11 years old by then, to discus the missbehaving and disturbing other pupils in the classroom during the learning period. I flew all the way from Germany to Mzansi(South Africa)this white neigbouhood that my girl is attending. The area used to be whites only back in the days. Thank God for the so called freedom haaaa. So, I came in there they extended a very warm welcome to me and my wife., then presented their case. " Your daughter is not doing what we tell here to do most of the time.... She sometimes bust out in a song while we are busy studying. " I asked to see her results of her school work. They said it's not about that she is doing very well infact on top of the class. I said why am I hear then if she is doing well by her method of learni is the same as mine when I was of her age. They said they want to transfare her to another school. That made me furious and I calm myself down and explained to them how I was. But at the end we had an understanding that people are not the same. Do not expect me to hear what you hear.
Take your time and listen as the day goes by, you will be suprised of what you can learn when you just give an ear and a smile.
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