Free will

These days some things have been crossing my mind. I have seen some couple of contraversies and sometimes I can't get my head around some of this daily occasions. The bible says God gave us the free will. Then go on sayin He so loved the world that he gave his only son to pay for our sins.

Let us talk about the will to be free, of which is free will. Bible again says the truth shall set you free. The fact is truth hurts. My question is, is free will part of love or is love the part of the free will. God said acording to the bible we can choose whom we want or love to be wife and marry. But then what if love goes away, do you still stay or you have a choice to leave? Do you tell your honest partner who did nothing that love is gone or dou you lie and stay for the sake of trust and promisses and the vows? Do you then convince yourself that things are going to change or you face the fact that things have changed and move on. why then most Christians believe that God chooses someone for you if he gave us the free will. and so why does love go away if we can controle freedom?

I always think the most dificult thing is to lie to yourself, but hey, who am I fooling? This is the part of the daily living. We lie so that we can survive the moment there after hoping to fix that lie and move on living. Answer me then who is free by telling the truth. Most place where we are sworn to tell the truth and only truth is ran by a jugde who in his sobber mind sentence someone who is 40 years old to a double life sentence. where is the truth in that rulling? how can a simple man get two lives in a row. If you are telling the truth in cort, you always go to jail, why is that?

I have to stop now, my mind is very disturbed by what I have seen these days. Hope I can get some answers and some of you can write alittle just to show that you are listening, And maybe help me understand the logic of all these things. I my real life i write songs and plays and to my suprise I write about things i haven't seen but they end up happening. I write about people that I havent met and I meet them later on. Where is the truth and free will. I don't choose my words but my words chose me. This is not helping me at all. this is one of the thing sometimes I feel like running away from writing and be where I will be free, but hey again who am I fooling. I find freedom in writing and I can not survive a day with ought it.